Well, I guess I have quite a story.

In 2012 I started 12WBT and over four rounds I lost 40kg - I was fit, healthy and happier than I'd ever been! Mish even posted my comparison photos on her FB page, and I had a small article about my weight loss journey published in Offspring magazine. That's me on the left in the black and white dress. That dress is a size 8. I developed a love of exercise, got addicted and ran 3 fun runs, and dreamt of more. 

I then fell pregnant with our 3rd (and final!) blessing. Madison entered the world on January 13th, making James (4) a very proud big brother again and Chelsea (2) a very excited new big sister. 

I kept up my training during my pregnancy until my pelvis gave way at 28 weeks and rendered me practically immobile for the rest of the pregnancy, but here's the kicker. Over the course of the nine months, shocking eating choices and slipping right back into old habits saw me gain 40kg. My baby girl will be six months tomorrow. When I had her I lost 7kg. I'm 5ft nothing and when I hit goal weight I was 54kg. I started my pregnancy at 58kg. I ended it at 97kg. I'm currently over 100kg (guessing, but definitely over 99.) That's me on the couch in the black. My clothes are all size 18s.

A reality check:
- 12 months ago, I could happily run 8km without stopping. Right now, I can shuffle for about a minute and I get breathless trying to tie my shoes. None of my clothes fit, I feel like a massive failure and three words are constantly running through my head. FALL FR GRACE. I'm embarrassed to see people because I feel that they're all judging me and whispering about how I failed. Again.

It's time to make time for myself now, to give my children the gift of a healthy and happy mother, and my amazingly loyal husband back the woman he fell in love with. The happy, confident one.

So here I go. This round of 12WBT starts on August 4th. Until then, I'll be focusing on the pre-season tasks and getting my head back in the game.

I can do this. I HAVE done this. And I will do it again!